#431.

if you do not like what i post here on MY blog, if you feel disgusted by what i post or whenever i fucking complain about something and let out my stupid feelings, the least you can do IS TO FUCKING STOP CLICKING OR TYPING THIS STUPID BLOG'S LINK. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

yes i swear a lot and i do not care whether you like it or not.

i'm going to marry jang wooyoung someday.

excuse me.

what is your heart beating for?

i'm sorry.
it doesn't even beat anymore.

#429.

i haven't seen the video yet 'cause YT is being a bitch. i participated in this project(last minute though :P), so i think my photo is somewhere in there. if not...then oh well. haha. i submitted this by the way:

One Day fighting♥


Tikah bought this for me. it's huge and yellow but the best part is? IT'S THE SAME LIKE WOOYOUNGIE's♥ HAHAHA. Thanks babe.

Happy 21st Monthsary :)

#428.

yesterday, i met a person whom i think is very admirable and inspiring♥

just wanna say thanks for all the words of advices you gave to all of us.

and p.s that smile of yours just happened to brighten my whole day♥

#427.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO SHAHERWAN!(captain jack sparrow arah photo tu) :D have a blast. and....atu saja. hahahahaha. pasal aku inda steady mun hal-hal greet urang ne. tunggu post si hareef saja ah? we can always count on him membagi ucapan yang memberansangkan(??) and cali-cali :p

okay. i'm sleepy. byeeeee!

#426.

Everyone seems to have very different opinions than one another. What's more ironic though, is that, every single opinion seems to be against mine. Only mine. It's frustrating not being able to meet every each of your expectations, but then again, i'm just a normal human being. I can't afford to please everyone.

I always thought that running away is for weak people, but that's exactly what i'm doing now. Running away from my problems. How long can i hide, that's the question. I can't run away and hide from the world forever. Sooner or later, i have to face this. No matter how hurtful it is knowing that i'm all alone in fighting this. I can't simply rely on other people for the rest of my life.

"i don't know how i should feel. Or react. Pointing fingers and blaming each other will not be the wisest thing to do. Would crying make everything okay again, though?"

Reading through all my fanfictions, i realize how much of a pathetic loser i am since everything was written down based on my feelings, hatred, untold truth, dark, shameful secrets and etc. I want to cry. Will crying make everything okay again though?

Being insomniac is really bothering. I don't really mind not sleeping the whole night but these pimples. Are. Seriously. Killing me.

I wanna go to the mv party. I hope to have fun that night. PLEASE DO NOT DISAPPOINT ME :( i knew i should have bought the tube dress the other day but bleghh. whatever.

hmm. i don't know what's more important right now. my happiness, your happiness, their happiness, our happiness? tell me a way to make everyone happy even if i have to sacrifice mine.

damn you amal. you and your so called empathy ._____. i hate you sometimes. it's a lovehate feeling, really.

imma find something to do now. later.

oh, please wish me luck and pray for me to win the 1.59pm autographed album contest. pleaseeeee. i really wanna win :|

thank you, and good morning. sweet dreams.

#425.

i am so ashamed of myself :"""""(

BRB. i've got some growing up to do.

#424.

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?

Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you

Why'd you turn away?

Here's what I have to say:

I was left to cry there,

waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare

That's when I decided

Why should I care?

cause you weren't there when I was scared

I was so alone

You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,

I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place

when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,

you used to hug me

But that wasn't the case

Everything wasn't ok

I was left to cry there

waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare

That's when I decided

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes

Open up wide

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't there

when I was scared

I was so alone

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't there when I was scared

I was so alone

Why should I care?

If you don't care then I don't care

we're not going anywhere

Why should I care?

cayse you weren't there when I was scared

I was so alone

Why should I care?

If you don't care then I don't care

we're not going anywhere

#423.

i think i'm finally........ready.

are you?


or...you already have since a long time ago? :) that's okay though. it'll make things much more easier ^^

so...let's say our last goodbye?

#422.

i can't imagine losing you,
a life living without you,
i will remember this moment, i swear,
me, the sunflower who's looking at you like the first time.
- sorry sorry answer, super junior ♥

my most favorite part in the mv/song. it's at 03:13-03:26 in the mv. i find them really.....i don't even know! i just love it!<3 especially the a life living without you part ♥_♥ i love the way they sing it. haha. go listen to it! you'll know what i mean :p

ahh, right when i decided to lock super junior out of my mind, this song popped out. i think this might be the reason of sudden revival of suju's fangirl side of me. okay, does that sentence make any sense? i don't even know. haha.